I’ve learnt this year that change doesn’t just happen without you actively making an effort. For me I have had to chase other people up by making phone calls, sending letters and emails in order to secure my future plans.
For a while I’ve felt like I was getting nowhere and that there wasn’t a light at the end of the tunnel. Then today I got two emails within minutes of each other solving two of my biggest sources of stress.
When you finally get some answers, it’s a relief and there is a great sense of satisfaction knowing you’ve been productive. I feel more able to achieve and that I am regaining control of my life and the decisions I need to make.
I found an image online which is based around the film ‘Finding Nemo’ which may I add is one of my favourites!
“You’re bigger than the big blue”
This can be interpreted in so many ways but for me it really relates to my struggles with depression and anxiety. The ‘big blue’ being these mental health problems which affect me on a daily basis. I also see the big blue like an ocean of obstacles in the form worries, fears, people. Not all of these things stick around, some might longer longer than others. But I’ve noticed that they come and go like waves, some knock me down and some push me up to a high but they never completely drown me – because I am BIGGER!