I did it!

After all of the stresses last year after failing a placement due to illness, I felt so nervous for my new placement which took place back in April. I am so happy to say that it all went well, in fact I don’t think it could have gone any better. I went in with an open mind, kept myself open and honest when people asked if I was okay because an issue I had last year was that everyone was surprised I wasn’t well!

My class teacher was lovely, the other staff members were really welcoming and there were a lot of students from university in the new cohort who I got to meet and spend lunchtimes with. This has really helped with my slow progress into year two as at least I will know a friendly face!

So I passed and am in the middle of my online enrollment to year two. It finally feels like I might see the end of this very dark tunnel and 2016 should be a much chirpier year. In other news, my boyfriend and I just moved into a flat together which is lovely and will definitely help matters as I get to come home every night to my best friend and biggest supporter.

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Sleepy Sunday

Last week was tiring despite it being a four day week so this weekend I decided not to spend too long doing planning and writing up my observations and evaluations for university. I really needed to get these jobs done but I value my health over my job any day, something I learnt after being continuously signed off last year.

The teacher/home life balance is achievable but it can’t be upheld every weekend. So if you work in a school or in any job where you have to continuously do extra work at home, let yourself have one weekend, two days a month to just not do any work and have time to yourself. You will be much more productive in your role having de-stressed a little and it is great for getting into a positive mindset.

I am now off to get an early night because what a great way to start the week, fresh and awake first thing on a Monday morning. Keep smiling, stay positive and encourage others around you to take on aย positive vibe.

Observations

They are never really welcomed and can be huge inconveniences to our daily routines. I had my first observation last Friday, what a way to finish my first full week back in school!

I felt it had gone okay, not amazing or outstanding just average what you would expect five days into a placement. However, my placement tutor has a funny way about talking and getting his points across. So after a quick chat afterwards I felt confused a bit disheartened. That evening he emailed the write up of my observation and I cried it read so negatively! It ruined my bank holiday weekend and I panicked about returning to school.

Today I reread my observation form and I realise how my mindset from Friday had impacted the way I was reading the comments. I read it in such a negative way when actually he had offered me lots of advice to further my skills and I had completely missed that I was graded a 2 (good in Ofsted terms). This has made me feel much happier about the observation but I also feel a bit silly!

It’s important to act as naturally as possible during observations so you can get an accurate feedback. This feedback may not be what you want tp see or hear but it’s really useful to have some guidance and a target to work towards.

From now I will try to embrace these observation opportunities and act humbly in my teaching practice.

Living with the parents

I am looking for advice from students and trained teachers who still live at home with their parents.

My university is only about 40 minutes from my home and as it is in an expensive city it seemed silly to spend so much money on the rent. I commute in which is bearable, but what I am really struggling with is living at home with my parents whilst I am on the teaching placements.

They are such important and pressurising weeks which you really need the right support systems at home for to make sure you relax and can feel comfortable. My mum works in a school and is currently going through a stressful time, she is highly strung most of the time anyway and as soon as she comes home will talk non-stop about her day. I found this last year a bit irritating but it was nice to see her babble on to my dad and it actually encouraged me to want to enjoy my job and have lots to speak about too.

This year I am really struggling with the fact I am treated like a respected adult in my classroom but not by my parents at home. I almost feel like I am living two lives. I have no space for any of my stuff…if you are a teacher you will understand how much paperwork and resources can gather up and take over your home! I can only store everything in my room.

Then there is the issue of my bedroom being my get away space, the place I plan and mark work, do my university work and I have hoards of stuff related to work which I see first thing I wake up and last thing before I sleep.

Little things like buying food for my placements and storing it is an issue too. I buy my own food and have to keep most of that in my room as well!

It seems like I am living in quite an unsupported home where I have little respect from my parents. Without wanting to sound spoilt, I wouldn’t be living here if I could afford it, so how can I make the best out of this situation?

Feeling extra stressed and tearful at the lack of comfort and support!

Procrastination

We all do it and sometimes we do not even realise we are! Avoiding the long list of tasks makes us feel temporarily happy but nothing will relieve the pressure and stress like actually cracking on with it all!

I write a long long list of things I need to do. Anything that comes to my mind, whether it is school related or not. Then I write another list (a bit more procrastination) of the things which are a massive priority. Things like urgently needing to post the eBay items I forgot about or emailing over an important form to university.

After writing my lists I either get productive happy and get the jobs ticked off, or I start tidying up my room, filing paperwork and loosing myself in the world of WordPress and Instagram! I am realising now though that successful people are productive people and they have routines! So this weeks challenge is to get into a better life routine.

we can’t completely transform our lives in a week, that would be too overwhelming! Instead one week at a time I will make little changes.

Week 1: Adjust the morning alarm clock. Waking up earlier will be easier on the sunny days, but if I can get my natural bodyclock to love a 6.30am start that would be so helpful.

Tomorrow.

Its getting closer to bedtime and after a year my placement is here! After being away from university I knew this would be a challenge and I would be filled with emotions.

So far I have spent three hours organising the placement file and trying to establish some routine to help me succeed.

Having anxiety and depression lead to me failing last year due to a weeks absence so I have an immense pressure to keep healthy and pass this time round. My university have been a help and located me a bit closer to home which helps and I have been reading all of my positive feedback in an attempt to get into that teacher mindset again.

I am so nervous and unsure of the near future!!! Ahhhhhh! Also so excited to be back in a classroom with the children and meeting the staff.

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Getting Healthy

My goal for the next six weeks on placement is to pass successfully and get into a healthier life routine. This means earlier starts, delicious lunches and a gym membership.

It’s not always easy to implement so many changes into your life, especially at pressurising times such as being on placement, so hopefully by letting everyone know I will be more likely to stick to my word!